Dangerously Close to Narcissism?

Before I get all pregnant and fat and sassy (thank you for being so patient with me about my journey, when the time is right, I will update you, but know all is well here on our end) not able to wear my cute little dresses anymore, I've been documenting myself.  It's become something that I look forward to, partly because I have narcissistic tendencies, partly because this is a period in my life I will never get back.  The period before child.  And it's really fun.  And, have I mentioned, I LOVE FASHION. And shoes.  And full length mirrors, when I feel good about myself.

So, if you have Pinterest, check out the board. 
What Are You Wearing Today?

 Here's a quick and dirty mosaic of all outfits so far:

Today's outfit:

Charlotte Russe dress, ModCloth shoes, Jean Jacket.  Or is it Jeans Jacket?

So, am I a Narcissist?  Dictionary defines as:

Excessive preoccupation with self and lack of empathy for others.
Narcissism is the personality trait that features an exaggerated sense of the person's own importance and abilities. People with this trait believe themselves to be uniquely gifted and commonly engage in fantasies of fabulous success, power, or fame. Arrogant and egotistical, narcissists are often snobs, defining themselves by their ability to associate with (or purchase the services of) the "best" people. They expect special treatment and concessions from others. Paradoxically, these individuals are generally insecure and have low self-esteem. They require considerable admiration from others and find it difficult to cope with criticism. Adversity or criticism may cause the narcissistic person to either counterattack in anger or withdraw socially. Because narcissistic individuals cannot cope with setbacks or failure, they often avoid risks and situations in which defeat is a possibility.

We all have ego.  There's a saying - "I'm an egomaniac with an inferiority complex".  I am not a narcissist.  In fact, every single trait here is opposite of who I am.  And yet, the fear I have of becoming such a person is great.  I want to always risk and be OK when I fail.  I want to always feel compassion and give people a chance.  I want to always feel among people and not above or below them.  I want to always be able to take criticism and make myself better, stronger, more.  I have no fame, power or success, and really?  That is just fine with me.

There is a difference between being nice and passive and having compassion.  I am so grateful I know this difference, have learned this difference and practice this difference.  I practice being humble.  I practice being loving and kind and patient. There is nothing passive about me.  I am honest and to the point, but also kind.  That doesn't mean I am nice.  But it doesn't mean I am a bitch either. 

That said, it's OK to like yourself.  To have fun with your physical appearance and feel better when you look better.  It's not all I am by any means, but we are in these physical vessels for our time on Earth, so we may as well have fun with it and rock some kick ass heels while we can. We are complex creatures, and owning the positive and the just plain ugly human parts of ourselves is all part of it.  Acceptance and love for ourselves and our flaws, our quirks, our intricacies, our beauty, is all part of the ride.  I for one, am enjoying the hell out of it. 

I said last night at a meeting when talking about a period in my life that was just OK, "I could have stayed that way for the rest of my life and have been fine.  But who wants fine?  I want GOOD."